I turned 21 last few days ago…
21 -> A beautiful number 
Have been reflecting on the positive and negative changes in ME for the last few years.. I think i really changed alot especially during my 3 years in Poly…
Anothing is that how is it like being older each year ?? During my sec sch years, i always have this thinking that i want to grow older !?!?! But now? I guess its the opposite =x Time really flies…
But, there are really more stuff to think about in life now… It’s totally different from the younger dayss, where we can still enjoy and relax without having to worry about the days ahead… More challenges faced, more problems to solve and more worries as compared … Now, i can understand why alot of my older friends, who are married or in their the working society kept telling me that it’s not really that cool to celebrate birthday afterall, because it reminds them that they are again.
Well… i’ve been reflecting about the positive and negative changes in me. I would just name some of the significant onces here. I guess its really important to identify our personal traits and character so as to improve and become a better person…
Changes: (consists of Gd & Bad)
- The way i spend my FREE time
-> Don’t really like to go anywhere unless its NECESSARY, which means i’m not hanging around in town as often as i do.. And i really SAVE alot ever since
-> I rather spend my spare time on more useful stuff like teaching Tuition part time, Doing research on my career path, Reading, Improving my guitar skills or Gym workout. These are part of my daily routine for adding self worth to myself…Below are the 2 books which i’m reading now :
- Wiser in budgeting & $$$ management
-> We can earn alot but we can also spend alot! So if we do this, there is no point working at this all during this period of time…
Follow the World richest man spending logic:
“I never buy anything unless i can fill out a piece of paper my reasons” said Warren Buffet.
- Lesser Pubbing = Less drinking
-> Personally, i’m definitely NOT someone in to late night Clubbing, super noisy & crowded, which i don’t really like !!!
But the thing is i do enjoy chilling out in the KTV or live band pubs.
I guess its normal to drink once in a while… esp after one whole week of hectic schedule or work… But i realised i have not been going as often as i do.. cos my drinking kakis have been complaining about me going MIA recently =x
Well… The “IN” thing for me NOW is Enjoying Red with companion of my guitar in my Balcony rather than a Sat late night out Its so much relaxing… - Don’t really like to hang out in big groups ANYMORE
Sometimes i do wonder if i have become Anti-social or i am becoming more aware of choosing the friends and companies i hang out with.
Last time, i used to hang out in big groups with my friends, my friend’s friends .. .. .. be it acquintances, normal friends, not so close friends, good onces, bad onces …etc When i think back now, its really a waste of my precious time. Used to go rounding, drinking, do all the shit in big groups and think its so cool.. What the hell -.-But NOW, i realised that i ONLY hang out with 2 or 3 of my close friends or true buddies…
What my dad said is really TRUE… “It is not how many friends u have or how big your contact is, but rather, how many of them who are really TRUE / FAITHFUL and is willing to stand by you when you are down…” After going through the ups and downs in friendship, i’m glad to say that i finally realise who are really my true friends and or aren’t…I rather just spend precious time my good buddies whom i can trust so as to understand them better and build up strong ties. It is pointless to hang out with too many groups.. cos afterall, i don’t think i don’t think i have the time to give my fullest commitments towards building strong foundation and ties with each of the groups. In the end, the friendship will still turning sour with the slighest down fall… I’m so sick of this cycle =x - TOO Much for Success !!
I’m kinda thinking ALOTTTTTT more as time pass by… About my career prospect & progression, about my further studies after N.S, about whether should i go for other Wealth management courses rather than local Uni, about my CFP course to be taken during N.S, about the competition ahead, about my dad’s business .. etc Basically its all about my career path… It’s really time to make Critical decisions in my LIFE…Sometimes, it really made me so worried that it hinders my progression and the process of understanding myself… I start to get intimidated and often commit some mistakes or tend to make the wrong choices.
I really need great strength from within to get me over all these crap!!! I really hope my inner soul will stay strong and positive as i know, i will have to walk this through myself…I really need to have more faith in myself…It’s all about my pride… Sometimes, i really need to learn how to let it down when situation persists…However, It’s also because of this factor which made me realised the importance of STAYING AHEAD, gain competitive advantage and to upgrade, improve and add self worth to myself each day.
I will not give up !!!!!!!
